With the ongoing pandemic, it’s hard not to reflect on our lives and reminisce on past adventures. In fact, it has become ever more prominent, ever more constant. Thoughts and memories that didn’t cross your mind before only seem to come flooding in without a warning.
Alas, I’m not here to talk in depth about the pandemic like my last post. In fact, I don’t have any particular direction with this post, so bear with me.
For those who have been following me on Instagram, I’ve been posting a series of silent vlogs on my YouTube channel which wasn’t something that I had planned on doing when I made the channel as it was initially intended as a platform for my cinematography output. But for the longest time, I’ve always wanted to somewhat document and preserve my thoughts and moments, be it when I’m with loved ones or on my own. When I came across Korean YouTubers like sueddu who vlog about their day without showing their faces or adding voiceovers, I thought it was the perfect kind of vlog that I would be most comfortable with, especially because I don’t like talking in front of the camera.
Admittedly, I have not been vlogging as often as I would like to in recent months. Work was piling up and we were (still are!) really stretched thin. At one point, I couldn’t bring myself to find comfort in the fact that this was all temporary because the workload just didn’t seem to diminish. It was even more difficult to focus on the positive when my daily routine of mindfulness was disrupted because of this.
In a bid to find whatever semblance of positivity that I could, I came across this quote in Breathe Magazine which I kept tucked away in a hanging tote bag behind my door:
“In a world where the presentation and idea of perfect often comes at the expense of reality, maybe it’s time to embrace the messiness.”
And I felt like everything around me suddenly stopped in motion. Just so I could let that sink in.
Slowly yet surely, I can see the silver lining once again and I’m reminded that things will not always be in places where you want them to be and that they can be found when you embrace the messiness of life.
I hope all of us will find the strength to carry on and remember to take one step at a time, even when it’s hard.